old habits never seem to go away

2011 has ended and to say that it was uneventful would be a massive lie.

heres a list of notable things in 2011

good memories:
Come to think of it, I cant name one lol!

bad memories:
1) I GOT CONSCRIPTED

2) raged more than usual one the roads thanks to an increasing number of crazy unskilled and speed-differentiation deficient drivers.

3) adopted a massive hatred for monkeys

4) spent a hell load of money cause i wanted everything i saw.
not sure if good or bad memories:
1) ended my polytechnic education by obtaining a diploma.(not sure if good or bad because my gpa sucks balls and i cant really go anywhere with it. also, i used to hate school but now when someone talks about how dreadful school is, i get a massive urge to tell them that schooling is at least 3x better than whatever comes after you graduate.

2) had massive emotional issues.

3) became so bored i actually read books in front of my computer

4) got a clerical vocation but office location is approximately 40km away from home and i actually have to OT without ANY extra pay

Other notable things:

Finally got a smartphone WITH a data plan(looking back, ive been using smartphones since 2007 and it was really retarded to have all those functions that you cant use because you dint have a data plan.) and am no longer frantically searching for free wi fi everywhere i go.

got a pair of audiophile earphones(though im not sure how high up the range they are, they are definitely at least 2x better than the ones that come with you mobile phones/ipods)

officially stopped competitive benchmarking and ocing

cleared my study and bedroom before enlistment only to have it looking like a dumping ground again after just 2 months. (therefore we can conclude that there is completely no point in clearing my room)


memories aside, i went to JB premium outlets on friday and it was terrible.

The prices are indeed lower than sg but the shopping experience is completely different. its as though the things there are cheaper because you pay less for service. or rather its because there is hardly any service at all.

walk into almost any boutique in sg and youll at least have 1 sales person coming over to say hi or can i help you.

over there, most shops only have 1 cashier and perhaps 2 sales assistants and they mostly just stare at you and try to be as unhelpful as possible.

products there also seem to be in bad condition as they look like about 1000 people touch and try them on every day. the belt buckles in burberry were so tarnished they looked almost black despite actually being silver/chrome

if i were to spend 10000 on a bag, id rather have great service and for my product to look brand new than to save a few hundred dollars to get a bag that looks used. i mean think about it, if you had the capacity to pay 10k for a bag, would you want to save a few hundred dollars or maybe even a thousand dollars BUT get something that looks used?


ive forgotten what else i want to blog about so thats all for now and happy new year!

people who do not deliver their side of the deal ought to be circumsized with a rusty blunt butter knife and then have their eyeballs gouged and fed to them

I hate it when someone goes back on their word especially if it was an agreement I was reluctant to make and the other party was the eager one.

Why beg me to agree when you arent prepared to deliver what you promised?

I should have known, considering all the times you've broken your promises and gone back on your word.

Looking back, I was extremely naive to believe that you would actually keep your end of the deal, knowing first hand that you are the sort of person who expects the world to revolve around you. You expect the person you borrowed money from to come all the fucking way to your doorstep and wait while you drag your saggy ass down to return a portion of what you owe, refusing to use bank transfers because the one minute it takes to do that is too much too waste given your fucking saggy assed pampered life.

You beg for help and whine like a little girl when in deep shit while refusing to listen to the very advice you seek.

I sincerely hope a thousand hornets impale you the next time you go outside.




As mentioned above, I hate it when someone goes back on their word. I do not deny that I do break promises or agreements but I try to make it as painless/troublesome for the other party as possible. I also at least try to work out an alternative solution with the other person as soon as I know i am unable to deliver what I agreed to.

What makes me seethe even more is when the person fails to keep his end of the deal and keeps mum and tries so hard to avoid contact to the extent that it is extremely obvious what he is doing despite being given a grace of about 2 months.

Did you really think avoiding me would solve your issues? How long exactly do you think you can keep your issues at bay? It would have been less of a hassle to at least spend 5 minutes of your worthless life to work out an alternative that to do what you have done. Sure, avoiding me requires no work and no hassles but have you thought of the consequences? No? Well bully for you.




Fucked up Gen Z kids aside, I unlocked several achievement badges this week. I got the "Crazily spend more than 1.5x your monthly pay in 2 weeks" and "Suddenly spending like a mad shit just because you felt like it". Id probably have unlocked a hell load more if the achievement list existed :/

I was shitting in my toilet on monday morning when I thought to myself, eh why nowadays almost everyone seems to be using non stock earphones(and a hell load of that population are sporting FAKEEEEE monster beats studio headphones) ah? Compressed Mp3 format use zai earphone can tell the difference meh?

Actually, Ive always been asking people that question and everyone who owns relatively good sound systems/headphones tell me yes, there are differences in sound quality but I never believed them.

So exactly as I was asking myself that question again on Monday morning, I saw a thread on a local forum on amazon buys and everyone seemed have camped for a certain pair of earphones on black friday a few weeks ago.

I spent the day looking the product up and found a seller and decided to purchase it as a christmas gift for myself since no fucking person I know would like to give me a christmas present despite me hinting(subtly and also extremely obviously) about me never getting anything since 10 years old. Its also always the same when it comes to my birthdays. The common excuse is that they dont know what to get me considering I have everything I want/ I buy myself everything I want. Well, have you considered ASKING ME WHAT I WANT? Also, did you not hear me say Id also be thrilled if you gave me a teletubby plush toy as long as its wrapped or has a ribbon on it saying GIFT. I just want to get something you know?  Its no fun buying yourself stuff.

Rants aside, this is what I bought        


                                 The box
                              

                               The flap on the lid

                                  Huge oddly shaped earphones

Being a noob at audio technology, I got these Ultimate Ears Triple Fi 10 ear buds since everyone on edmw was hooting it during the amazon black friday sale.

I missed it during black friday so I bought it off someone who bought extra to resell. Dint pay much more than he did anyway. He got them at 190 and I got them off him for 210.



I must admit, even my compressed Mp3s(320kbps) sounded crispier and there were things Ive never heard from songs that I have been listening to for years. In other words, there really is a difference(though Im not sure if there is any if you bought the fake monstar beets).

Tried it out with my laptop and a 1080p movie with 5.1 dts and it was awesome.

The downside of this thing is that the drivers are extremely huge and the shape of the earpiece is weird which makes it hard to keep. The cables are also plasticy(though its made this way to be anti tangle I think its more because its cheaper) because it IS made of some sort of plastic. The cable is also very short which is going to make using them an issue if you want to sort of sit back a little from your laptop screen while watching a movie.

Either way, not a buy for my first ever audiophile product and also my first item purchased off a non retail shop!

Have to go put pins in the eyes of the voodoo doll I made for the guy who dint deliver now, ta ta

ill tear this world asunder

I cant seem to get myself interested in anything. be it games, movies, music or just making simple conversation.

It's like im just going through the motions and not really absorbing or enjoying what im doing.

Freedom on weekends just doesnt seem the same knowing youll have to get back to mundane 'work' on monday.

I guess it's also alot harder to enjoy what you used to enjoy when you arent sure what emotions you're feeling at that moment.


whining aside, ive completed assassin's creed revelations last week and i must say it isnt as bad as i thought it would be. considering that it's the 3rd creed game based on ezio's journey, id thought ubisoft would have run out of creative storylines but i was wrong.


also watched already famous, puss in boots and the adventures of tintin.

im not sure if it's due to my current lack of interest in everything, but i must say all 3 movies were rather bad. already famous was the worst of all. cheesy jokes and constantly repeated soundtrack makes the film seem like it was incredibly low-budget. It's like the movie ost only had 3 songs in it.

The other 2 films were not as bad but still wasnt as good as i expected them to be.


blew almost a month's allowance on clothes yesterday at robinson's warehouse sale.


makes me wonder if ill end up losing money over the next 2 years instead of eing able to save up almost every cent of my allowance as I previously intended.

addicted to the way we crash and fall

so i bought something from amazon on black friday, and was anxiously anticipating the arrival of my purchase when i saw this

its not hard to imagine how hard i fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ed when i saw that.

i mean come on, its already in singapore and it has cleared customs. what could the external delay possibly be? was it the pouring rain that swept all the dhl trucks into the sea? or was it that my item was frozen due to the sub zero temperatures it was exposed to in the air cargo hold?

or maybe someone ate it by mistake.


HOW CAN DELIVERY BE DELAYED FOR MORE THAN 12 HOURS WHEN THE ITEM IS ALREADY IN THE COUNTRY???????????????????

why is it that i run into issues every single time i deal with things that have to be shipped, delivered or mailed? the global postal/delivery service council/committee must have flagged me for terrible service because there hasnt been a single delivery that ive received that wasnt late,delayed or messed up.

i guess the estimated delivery date is some sort of consolation. at least if it comes on 4th dec i can technically say it arrived early despite being delayed in singapore for 3 days.

i do hope it comes tomorrow, so that ill at least have something to look forward to besides vomitting and sitting in the toilet.

ive gotten 3 days mc for food poisoning and viral infection which essentially makes this week, a 1 and a half day work week for me. if jon sees this im quite sure hes gona fuuuuuuuuuuuu harder than i fuuuuuuu ed when i saw the delay. which is why im saying it here any way trollface.jpg


since everyone in the usual gang has been enlisted, i hardly have anyone to talk to or crap with when im bored. i have so much free time i can plot the assasination  of the teletubbies and still have time to think about a thousand ways to make barney(the purple dinosaur, not stinson) and friends(dj, baby bop etc) never smile again.

come to think of it, i might have lobotomized blue, the crazy blue bitch that loves to leave muddy footprints all over the place thinking it's a cute and creative way to make everyone sherlock holmes, in one of my dreams when i dozed off while staring at currency boards.

i am rather disappointed with my blackberry. i like how it is fluid and mostly lagless but the applications available for blackberries are just pathetic. most apps are iphone app rip offs and some fundamental apps either missing or not working properly eg: internet radio app.

its also really shitty having a non cam phone cos for some reason, ive been witnessing many photo worthy(or stomp worthy) events and i just cant take a pic cos i dont have a cam phone!

ive got to go now cos my ass is screaming to make contact with a toilet seat cover and my stomach is encouraging it.

lost in the darkness

what an incredibly bad time to have an emotional overload.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

1 and a half month down, 691 fucking days to go

as the title says, ive been conscripted for almost 2 months now and i have exactly 691 days(from today) before i am no longer a slave. why a slave? considering the amount of work to be done, the working hours and an hourly pay of 1.33333 dollars, id say its slave labour. im not sure how much foreign construction workers are paid a day but i think they are either paid more or the same but have lesser working hours(true fact based on all the construction work done in my area.
they usually start at around 830-9, break at 10-11, work again till 1, have lunch till 2 and then work till 4 or 5 and then sit around waiting for the transport back)

talking about about transport, ive been posted to a place approximately 40 km away from my home and have to travel to and fro every single day. did i mention i had to be there at 8am? the route is fine if i drive but as everyone knows, traffic jams can screw you up so badly it might be faster to take an mrt. the worst jam ive been in so far during these 2 weeks at mindef was about 40 minutes. 40 minute jams during school holidays and 'non peak' hours. i wonder how bad it would be when school starts again in the new year.

im also deprived of a cook house and have to pay for all my meals despite making 1.3333 dollars an hour. the perks of this job are that i get to wear civis after a month and i do not have to run around diving into mud in jungles screaming taking fire need assistance.

job scope aside, i recently purchased a blackberry because the computers in the office have no net connection. singtel however, screwed up this happy occasion by making me go down to their roadshow twice on different days and screwing up my subscription details and not activating my blackberry services even after 5 working days. life sucks when you are conscripted.

Satisfied a year long durian craving at bedok 85's durian stall yesterday with ling le li hui jing ming jingzhe and keith. despite the price, i think we all agree that it was worth it. no idea when li hui will upload the pictures. when she does, ill post it here. went splurging(i dont call what i do shopping because i go there and i say ill take this this and this instead of looking around and hence i call it splurging because i instantly splurge) today for ns stuff. ns is expensive. bought a nokia x1 mobile phone from 7-11 which cost 65 dollars and a g shock protrek watch which cost........... 450 dollars.

the new stuff

my old watch on the left, new on the right i initially planned on getting a normal g shock with only stopwatch alarm timer tough solar and world clock but the thought of having a compass, thermometer, barometer, altitude meter and tide graph in your watch was just sooooooooo tempting and almost orgasmic. the all black normal g shock was also out of stock island wide(at least from g factory stores) so i took it as a sign(or divine intervention/higher calling looool) to give into temptation and get a watch that has almost everything. before i saw the prices, i actually had another model in mind. that one has everything my new one has but has an additional radio wave receiver inside it that lets the watch monitor radio frequencies and automatically sync the timing with radio stations. but of course that watch cost 1200 sgd so its definitely out of budget. gona play with my new toys now, byebye

what goes around comes back around but if you duck when it does, it'll go another round. repeat for inifite evasion of karma

remember the ipod shuffle i got about 3 years ago? i took it out today to fill it up with music so that i can bring it into ns with me. im really surprised it still works and the sound quality isnt as bad as i remembered it to be.

the fact that i need itunes to even use it sucks. i now have one additional music/media player application on my computer which is absolutely useless. i guess i can use it as my main music player now that its much more user friendly. i also realised that i need an itunes store account to even get album art work. and creating an account requires credit card information. why is there even a need to have an account to get album art?

i like the shuffle system on the new itunes. when you press shuffle, your entire playlist is shuffled immediately and you can see whats coming next. i guess its also bad if you want to be kept in the dark about the next song. the new visualizations are also extremely captivating(although it does resemble shiny multi-colored sperms and eggs attempting to bond). im not sure what it uses but it sure looks like its direct x rendered.

(if the features mentioned above have been around since forever, please bear in mind that the last time i used itunes was around 5 years ago)

swimming on tuesdays arent meant to be since it has rained on tuesday mornings for the past 3 weeks(including today) this leaves me with nothing to do except to sit infront of my computer and stare at the itunes visualization since i cant exactly play games.

why cant i play games? my secondary graphics card is dead and i dont feel like playing any game if i cant play it at least on all high with at least 45 fps.

turning all against the one is an art that's hard to teach

every time I have quiet serene moments to myself and I think of death and what I want in life, I seem to always have this burst of motivation to do anything possible to achieve what I want. Sadly, when I wake up the next morning, groggy and pissed that sunlight is staking my eyes into the back of my skull, I will always seem to forget or lose the motivation I had the day/night before and usually end up wasting the next few days doing nothing constructive.

How I wish I had the mental strength to do every single thing I said/hoped/want/need to do.


on the side note,i also wish certain people had more Y chromosomes in them so that they wouldnt be so motherfucking critical over what is completely unimportant and be more focused on the big picture.

ive been putting off several posts because i feel that i have so much to say but yet i have no idea how to say it and whenever i think about how i should construct the post, i digress or make things even worse. with that said, i also have no idea how to end off this post because thoughts are rapidly zipping around in my head like the windows text screen saver(you know, the one where you can set a sentence like 'blow me' and it bounces around the screen) except that in my case they are WOTs and are constantly changing every second and are bouncing/zipping around like a drunk, heavily caffeinated, sonic the hedgehog wearing turbo boots on steriods.

show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time

bought 40 dollars worth of 2nd hand books yesterday(3 for 10 dollah, do the math). noticed some books on sale in terrible state despite being less than 10 years old. i leave my books lying around covered in dust and they are in better state than what was on sale. makes me wonder how on earth they got to be this way. were they kept in garbage dumps and flipped with enough force to break a limb?

also caught johnny englandz last night. not worth a 9.50 weekend ticket price but since it was a week day and i had a discount, 7 dollars for it wasnt too bad. at least it helped to burn a little time.

ive been so bored lately, especially this week as my 1 month wow subscription has expired and i cant play it anymore until jet finds his missing testicles and buy me a subscription card(he owes me money). ive been asking him to get it since last wednesday afternoon(he went out every single day from wed-sunday and could have bought them any of the days or after school from monday-thursday) but apparently efficiency isnt his strongest point. if he still doesnt get it today as promised, i promise to run him through with a chainsword(from warhammer 40k dow/space marine games) and pay special attention to slice off his gentialia.

speaking of warhammer, i completed space marine in 5 hours. that was only because i died countless times due to stupid things like bugs and the lack of possible cover when 20 orks are shooting at me and i have to run slowly to them while taking insane damage doing so.

after playing space marine and being introduced to the ultramarines, i thought, 'hey there's a movie called ultramarines. lets check it out' and at the end of the show, all i could think of is wtf is this shit that i just watched?


i finally got around re-configuring my surround system for my pc cause i was extremely bored. i also managed to do some chores like clearing some shit from my shithole dumping ground study room. it still looks like a shithole dumping ground but at least my table is less cluttered and i can actually see the wood(was previously covered by shit like letters,brochures,books,mags,cables and so on).

i feel cheated by cmpb. they gave me a 6 month e9l9 pes but refuse to give me an enlistment date. i get the feeling my pes might be revised again before i enter, which is cheat moi feeling huan roh.. i wonder if i can complain against them for causing undue distress and false sense of happiness. i guess not, since its never wise to challenge the authoritae(jet found out the hard way, check out his story a few posts back).

help meeeee im so bored that im reading a book in front of my computer. that just isnt right. ITS NOT RIGHT I TELL YOU, NOT RIGHT AT ALL.



EDIT!! HI. just got a call from cmpb saying they sent my enlistment letter today and my enlistment date is 11 oktobar! i may miss oktobar fest festivities but i get the go in with a low pes at least ^^ i hope within these 3 weeks my pes doesnt get revised